The end..but not forever

So as the trip comes to an end, I don't want to think of it as a good bye, but as a new beginning. I have never had a rejuvinated spirit quite like this. I feel as though it has increased my motivation level for life has just gone up not just because of what this world has to offer but because I genuinely have a new found passion for public health. Its kind of random and its not because of the nasty metro stations that ignited this endevour of mine but its maybe partially my own story and the struggles I go through on a daily with health for the past few years. They say everyone has their own battle and personally for me its always be getting my two feet up and doing basic things, I might have mentioned in the past that before I didn't push myself as hard to venture out when I started living with chronic pain but being here has made me realize that I still can live my life to the fullest. Even though I have had 24/7 migraines for the past 3 years now it has somehow sunk into me that this is my story, even if it probably isn't the most epic story it adds meaning to my life, I tend to work well with children who come from unconventional backgrounds or learning disabilities/ any individual who knows struggle because I can empathize with their pain whatever it may be. I haven't really known a lot other than pain for a long time. I'm definitely not the person I was 3 years before I had to endure with constant pain rooting from my spine up but with time I have tried to always somehow keep myself busy with other things whether it was indian rec dance team, community service, yoga, temple, and spending time with my loved ones. I had tried ignoring a lot of the pain because it wasn't approved in my society it was seen as a minor hindrance but in actuality it had created my life to be a living state of chaos. I actually have never been extrinsically motivated, I used to be but it became too much for me I started to lose myself as a individual either get to caught up in competition or attributions. Honestly, at my point in my life I have to do what's right for my wellbeing and still try and integrate myself in the selfless acts I have loved doing my entire life. I hope one day I'll get the chance to live without the burning,tingling,pins and needles sensations. My grandmother who's 70 feels this on a daily and being 20 living with symptoms like this makes me feel senile at times, it sucks but you got to work with what your handed I guess. I have a lot of added weight in my life and sometimes everything is overburdening for me, I'm trying my best not letting chronic pain define me.